Aloneness

This Thursday, my parents are flying to IL for Mom's annual family reunion. I wish I could go, I would really like to re-connect, haven't seen any of them since I was a pre-teen or younger. But my budget and job schedule won't permit me to do so. I hope maybe I will be able to manage it next year, and that we don't lose any more family members before then.

I hate being alone at night, not out of fear, but just because it's lonely and makes me just a little insecure. It's not fear.

Dad bought some ham steaks for me to have for dinner while they're gone. I guess he doesn't remember that I told him I don't particularly like ham. He remembers that it's one of his favorites, and it's easy to cook. As they say in the South, "bless his heart."