Here it is, the middle of 2010. At the beginning of 2010, after 2 bad years in a row for me, I made up my mind that I wanted a better year, and figured I had to do something different to get something different. And I decided that the different things I would do were: (1) go back to school, get my accounting degree; (2) move out of my ex-husband's house; (3) move back to Florida to live near the people (my family) whom I love.
There have been a few little bumps in the road, but I have accomplished (2) & (3) and am working on (1), with good progress so far and about 16 months to go to achieve it. Along the way, I've gotten closer to quite a few people, made some enemies of a small handful of others (most of whom never did a damn thing for me but seem to think I've wronged them, how I cannot fathom), and picked up some entirely new relationships that are beginning to be very good for me.
I was quite amused to see one of the people whom I perhaps should not consider a friend comment that the reason for all the positive changes in my life could be ascribed to the hateful comments that were launched at me by the people that decided to become my enemies. I know full well that all of the positive changes in my life have everything to do with (1) & (2) & (3), which were determined (by me and me alone)many months before a ridiculously blown-out-of-proportion incident made those people turn against me.
So, my life now is pretty great. I mean, yeah, I'm still unemployed. I'm still in debt up to my eyeballs. I'm still working my ass off to get this degree, and it's not easy, by any means.
But I feel better about myself than I ever have in my life. I mean that. I'm happy with my body, happy with my living situation, happy with my choices, happy with the people I've chosen to be in my life, happy with the path I'm on...and I truly believe better things are in store for me, even.
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I'll never get that. Does anyone REALLY believe that negativity and hateful comments propel someone into a better state of living? Tearing someone down and nearly celebrating the failure of others doesn't do anyone any good. Amazing how the train of thought goes. I guess some people don't want to make real effort toward anything good, and need any place they can find it to take credit for "being a part".
ReplyDeleteI pray, for their sake, that they find more constructive ways to be a part of someone's life. I can't imagine anyone living their life out they way my great uncle did, because he really did die mostly alone. He had his kids and sister (gramma), but he was alone. No one wanted to deal with him more than they HAD to. I sure don't want to die with everyone who surrounds me seeing spending time with me as a chore.
You're kicking ass and taking names. You'd be doing that without us. You had this plan a LONG time ago. We're cheering you on and praying for you! Much love, sister-friend!