Yeah - Sex

I know this could be considered whining, I don't care. I feel a need to vent. Maybe this is not the best place to do it, but I know the "object" (or would that be "subject"?) is highly unlikely to see this.

Fear of commitment just doesn't make sense to me...I've never really had that issue. Yet, I don't consider myself a risk-taker. Maybe it's a "special category" of risk-taking, I don't know. I've always been pretty open to that risk, I guess. Reward could be worth it, it seems.

And I guess there is some latitude to be given to people who've recently gone through a painful breakup. Although, the parameters of "recent" are certainly subjective. (Wow, statistics may be actually rubbing off on me.)

So, then, given these things...someone says I am the hottest woman he's ever come across in his life, gives various descriptions of why...but backs off, due to not being over someone else (whom he describes as at least having no advantage over me physically, and we seem to have a lot more personality stuff in common...would think that would be valuable). OK, I guess I just have to deal. One of my main "life mottoes" actually, is "don't have to like it, just have to live with it." And then, he still keeps in touch, driving me crazy with "I still think about you, but...". I am not all that sure why I do it, but I keep responding, maybe trying to hang in there in hopes he gets over her...

I guess, meanwhile, I'll just try taking my dog to the park, or whatever...it would be such a damn shame to let this newly-found "sexual prime" thang go to waste...not that I'm indiscriminate, I won't have sex at the drop of the hat or anything...got to establish trust, friendship, etc...for what it's worth.