My "best friend" since I was 12 said something to me this evening that has really, really hurt me...and didn't explain. And has done this sort of thing to me twice before. I guess I should take that as an indicator that it's more about her than me. But I am still hurt. I don't understand. Just yesterday, she called me. I was unfortunately on my way somewhere, couldn't really talk at the time. I wish she'd called at a different time. I wish I didn't feel this way, but this is a relationship that goes back 34-35 years, back when we were still trying to figure out who we were, and the things we went through together were very much like an actual sisterhood, to me. Except that it was one of our choosing, which made it mean even more to me.
Maybe I need to let the tears come, get them out of my system. And part of me says, "I thought I was done dealing with people who make me cry." Shows what I know. I'm still vulnerable.
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My favorite saying (and I probably have the wording wrong) is "The only person worth crying over is the person who never makes you cry." Just a thought that has saved me a lot of heartache.
ReplyDeleteAwesome thought, Daphne! Thanks for that.
ReplyDeleteThose who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.
ReplyDeleteLook it up. It's a good one. <3